You finally broke me. You just had to say it. No one can believe that you can be soo heart less. I don’t know what is more fucked up. The fact that you talk about me and tell ppl that i’m not virgin or because why you think that. How can you sit with people who are my friends …
I have no idea who said or did such things to you, but if I ever found out I’d make them hurt. You are such a beautiful person, inside and out, and the kindness you show everyone is astounding. I can’t believe that this is how someone would treat you, given how you are. I love you girly <3
Is there anyone you wanna go back and try thing’s out with for a second time? Possibly…I try not to think in the past, though.
Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself? Yes. Very few people though.
When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go? It depends on what happened. And the reason why they walked out in the first place.
Boys are always good with their words, am I right? They can be. They can say one concise sentence that encompasses a billion of my thoughts sometimes. But…they can also be clueless too lol. VERY clueless.
You’re getting ready to go to bed, and the last person you kissed shows up, what do you say? Well we DO sleep in the same bed and apartment..
What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? I’m really drunk and tired.
Do you trust your gut instinct? Sometimes…my mind is too neurotic and crazy to just go with an instinct though.
If someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say? Honestly? I don’t quite know. To be okay with myself and my life. To be happy with the things that I have; intelligence, people who love me, the vast possibilities ahead of me, etc. To not be so obsessive or perfectionistic.
Has a girl ever stayed up with you all night? A guy? Yes and yes.
Do you like where you live? I like and dislike it for multiple reasons. But the same goes for everywhere else I’ve ever lived.
1. Had a threesome. 2. Been drunk. 3. Touched a real gun. 4. Done drugs. 5. Wrote on a bathroom stall. 6. Took “naughty” pictures of myself. (can tumblr be the judge of this) 7. Had sex. 8. Got into a fist fight. 9. Used Twitter. 10. Listened to Lady Gaga. 11. Been in a car accident. 12. Gotten suspended. 13. Gotten expelled. 14. Got a computer virus. 15. Had a hand-written diary. 16. Been allergic to something. 17. Had a dog. 18. Had a cat. 19. Been pregnant. 20. Had a pregnancy scare. 21. Had unprotected sex. 22. Camped out. 23. Swam in the ocean. 24. Wore a bikini. 25. Meet someone online in person. 26. Made a survey. 27. Used ICQ. 28. Failed a class for the year. 29. Repeated a grade. 30. Went to summer school. 31. Got the high honor roll. 32. Got the regular honor roll (A’s and B’s). 33. Learned to speak another language fluently. (almost :/ ) 34. Read an entire book. 35. Recorded my own music. 36. Had an xBox. 37. Listened to Rammstein. 38. Wore fishnets. 39. Bought skinny jeans. 40. Been in love. 41. Hated someone. 42. Been cheated on 43. Cheated on someone. 44. Had a significant other. 45. Did something sexual with someone of the same sex. 46. Practiced Christianity. 47. Worn makeup. 48. Had a cavity. 49. Had surgery. 50. Had my license. 51. Been to college. 52. Graduated high school. 53. Attempted suicide. 54. Worn colored contacts. 55. Painted my nails black. 56. Broken someone’s heart. 57. Had my heart broken. 58. Cried for an hour straight. 59. Lost something very valuable. 60. Had sex in a car. 61. Got separated from my parents as a kid. (briefly) 62. Broken a bone. 63. Gotten stung by a bee. 64. Eaten something bad/expired. 65. Threw up from being so drunk. 66. Had to put a pet to sleep. 67. Participated in a swinger’s party. 68. Owned an iPod. 69. Owned an iPhone. 70. Fell for a best friend. 71. Stole a friend’s significant other. 72. Got a computer virus. 73. Went away from home for more than a week. 74. Moved out. 75. Ran away. 76. Teased my brother/sister. 77. Gotten into a fist fight. 78. Been to the hospital. 79. Had food poisoning. 80. Had a job. 81. Been fired. 82. Lied to a friend. 83. Lied to a family member. 84. Lied to a significant other. 85. Posted a video on YouTube. 86. Started a rumor about someone. 87. Deliberately failed a test. 88. Dropped out of school. 89. Gotten my “private parts” pierced. 90. Been skinny dipping. 91. Counted to a million. 92. Counted to a thousand. 93. Ate deer meat. 94. Ate duck meat. 95. Had fast food. 96. Been to church. 97. Been to a synagogue. 98. Been married. 99. Had a divorce. 100. Broken a window.
Driving 15 hours fucking sucks, let’s start out with that. I didnt even drive any of it, but I made myself stay awake the entire time to watch Jim and Wallen, just in case it seemed like they needed to be told to take a break (which happened more than a couple times lol). I’ve decided already, the next time we drive home, I’ll just find some adderall and do the majority of the drive bahaa.
Anyway, it was really nice seeing people, but I feel fucking miserable. The whole point of us coming home this weekend was so that I could spend time with my friends, but once word got around that the fucking newlyweds and their puppy were in town, that notion became ridiculously hard. I mean, I get it, our families and family friends want to see us and shit. But that left me with little time for the people I NEEDED to see.
But even getting to hangout with my friends felt a little weird. I couldn’t help but feel out of place. It’s hard to explain I guess, but I’ve been gone all summer getting used to this new life, so going home and hearing about all the crazy antics I’ve missed and probably would’ve been a part of made me feel displaced. What was weirder was that I didn’t even necessarily feel sad about missing a lot of it.
…on an irrelevant lighter note, though, Sora was so fucking spoiled this weekend by everyone, she’s going insane with neediness for attention from me. Smh.